“Our very life depends on continuous acts of beginning. But these beginnings are out of our hands; they decide themselves.
Beginning precedes us, creates us. There is nothing to fear in the act of beginning.
More often than not it knows the journey ahead better than we ever could."
John O’Donohue


5 August 2013: Lake Champlain

Search for the Plesiosaur

“It doesn’t take much for a creature
to become a monster,”
he informs me,
tossing stones into shallow water.
“But it takes even less to bring them back.
They just have to know you love them.”

So we walk the sandy parts of the lake’s shore,
the wooded ones,
the bouldered coves,
the train tracks
sprouted with summer wildflowers.
We paddle out by kayak,
take the ferry roundtrip
across the narrow neck of the lake, 
linger at the apex of the arched bridge
between New York and Vermont.

I buy a second ice cream cone.
In case we find him.
In case he likes ice cream.

The time passes with comments on newness--
the peculiar flowers that seem to live just here,
the feel of cold, fresh lake water
under the layer warmed by the summer sun,
vistas with mountains whose names we don’t know, 
the way we can see rain clouds moving in 
from so far away.

I have no way to tell him, eight years old,
that I’ve been here before,
and not once.

This is where all the trouble starts—
searching for a monster
with a tender heart.